The challenge to wake up!

For 49 years I have opened my eyes each morning after a long night's sleep.
I am grateful for waking up each morning for as long as I have.
When will I ever wake up spiritually?
Will I ever be fully "awake" in this lifetime?
Sadly, not.
I am too far gone.
I have so many selfish thoughts.
I run short of patience.
I overflow with greed.
I erupt in anger.
I implode with self doubt.
Amida calls "Namo Amida Butsu!"
"Namo Amida Butsu"
Wake up Jishin!
Wake up priest!
Wake up foolish woman!
I smile.
Amida has awakened in me
and will never sleep
again....





Thank you,
Jishin
(journal entry 2/27/13)